Down and Out

Stress has really had a hold on me for the past few weeks. My blood pressure has been quite high and I've just been feeling down and out. Not much is really different from how things usually are at work. So I wonder what it is that makes a person reach the breaking point. How is it that one day you just wake up and realize that you've had enough. You aren't happy. You don't enjoy your days and all the joy and positive energy is being sucked out of you for a purpose that is solely about money. What makes you break? What makes you stop caring about the money? Is it that you have enough or you realize that there will never be enough unless you let go? Well I reached that point this week. I can't really say what drove me there - it really wasn't any one specific thing. I just hit the wall. I don't know what this is going to mean for me. Its scary. But I know I can't go on the way I have been. It's a relief to come to the decision but it is also incredibly depressing. I think that was the big surprise. I just feel like crying. But the tears won't come out.